You can go your own way

So my parents have just recently popped a question I had involving my current and future plans. I’ve always wondered how they felt about my way of living. As I was telling my dad about taking a required course in accounting for my degree this school term, he proceeded to talk about how easy accounting is to me, followed by:

“You know, it may not be such a bad idea for you to major in accounting… if it’s something you like anyway.”

Don’t get me wrong, I love my dad. We have a great relationship. But the first thing that came to mind was “What does Accounting have to do with my first major in Graphic Design?” Truth is, there isn’t much of a connection. Graphic Design and Marketing are both very similar. Though accounting is a different kind of field. I sat there putting all the pieces together and I now get the message.

He thinks Graphic Design isn’t the job for me? Maybe he’s concerned I choose the wrong path, and wants me to pursue another career that will make me happier and financially stable. I know that’s exactly what he’s telling me. What parent wouldn’t want that for their child? I have to admit, I got a little bit upset over the fact, even though I know that’s just his way of saying he’s worried about me stressing too hard about pursuing my passion.

When I started college, it wasn’t too much of a challenge to know where to start searching for my major options. I already knew most of what my interests were, but I still began my first year working on general studies so I could confirm I’m using my money’s worth. The second year was when I decided to apply myself in a Graphic Design major.

I was very nervous when I began my classes because I knew hardly anything about the software we used, which was mostly Illustrator, Photoshop, Dreamweaver, and InDesign. Besides the software, my classes taught me a lot of things I didn’t know so much about in High school, such as technical structure, discipline and work precision. Along with that, I had to learn how to be proficient with the software within a few years time.

Though the biggest challenge I had was communication, and found it hard to speak the passion I felt within me. I threw negative thoughts in my head and became my own worst enemy. It caused me to withdraw from talking to authority figures and students out of fear of resulting situations I tried to avoid. I panicked when I knew I had to speak, and got tongue-tied when my work or pitch ideas needed to be presented. I constantly wondered how weird I seemed compared to everyone else.

It was a tough ride, and I was thrilled that I made it through. It made me realize how much strength I had built throughout my 21 years of existence. This was one of the most challenging things I had to do, and I felt proud when I received my diploma. I knew I deserved it for trying something so challenging and pushing myself to the limit. Soon after, I pursued freelance design by asking around friends and family if they knew anyone that needed my services. Eventually, I was set up with a few projects.

The moral of the story though, I know I’m not the best Designer in the world. But I also know I’m not the worst. I’m good enough to give it a go and just try. I don’t expect to get it all right starting off. What they cover in school starts you off, but you learn so much more when you just go out there and do something. Of course it’s going to bring more stress on some days, but I will also have those days when I get it all figured out.

Growing up is nothing but trial and error. In fact, I’m still growing. I even see people older than me who are still growing in their 30s, 40s, and even 50s. No one should be expected to be a Pro at something over-night. It’s hard to think about those things sometimes because we consume all this discouragement from the people around us, and even our own self-loathing is the worst. But the best advice I have ever heard is you can do whatever you want. All it takes is time and practice. Within time, you will get to where you need to be.

If any of you are dealing with this problem in your life, I hope you take my word for it. Don’t even think about quitting your passion… because if you do, you may never know how good you could have been. It doesn’t matter how old you are, or how busy you are either. Pursue that destiny that gives your life an exciting kick. It’s never too late to do it.

After all, you are still alive, aren’t you?

What is your passion and dreams in life?

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